No perfect recovery?

Well today I was on plan. Yeahhhh me! Although I'm not sure if I should say "yeahhhh God". It is still very discouraging tho to see that abstinence count go down...and so close to a record too. :(. Oh well...that's life. ODAT has to work backwards as well as forwards I suppose.


I think I might finally be ready to move on to step 2. Wow after how many months? I read about all these people who do steps 1-3 in one night etc etc. What the????? I don't know about the "giving yourself over to God" thing. I don't know how that's going to change things. I know plenty of fat people who pray that.

Hmm that's about it for now. I really need some sleep.